Should I try being a pescetarian (vegetarian who eats fish) for the month of June…
Everyday I either find out someone is getting married or someone is having a baby. Means I’m getting old.
Cabin fever and loneliness.
http://ohjoy.blogs.com/my_weblog/
Looks like I’m going to have a DIY summer until I leave for Asia!
Summer job fell through. I take it as a blessing in disguise.
^^new favorite blog to read
First year of grad school: DONE! = laying in bed all day long :D
Busier than ever; this month is going by like a blur. Whenever I get a free day I’m going to sew my heart out. Exhausted and in need of some serious down time!
EMPLOYED EMPLOYED EMPLOYED :D GOD IS SO GOOD!!!
Year Of Magical Thinking
I read this book, “Year of Magical Thinking” for one of my classes. It’s a pretty interesting yet sobering book. The book is about how the author deals with the death of her husband. This “year of magical thinking” is how she describes that for a year after his death, she truly believed that she could somehow bring her husband back from the dead. She would go over the event in her head over and over again, trying to figure out how she could have prevented the tragic outcome.
Things in her environment would trigger her to have painful memories of him. It would paralyze her in the moment. It could be any mundane object that brought her into this “vortex effect”. If we try to avoid these triggers we’d all have to live in a bubble. It’s about learning to cope and respond differently to these triggers. (I tell my clients this all the time; I probably should listen to my own advice.)
In many ways I’m stuck in this “magical thinking”. I never had a close loved one pass away, but grief can be a loss over anything. There are some things that I’ve lost that I haven’t fully gotten over. And I don’t think people ever truly grief to the point where they’re ever “fully over it.” I waste away so much time thinking what I could have done differently. Sometimes I think I go to the extreme that she went to, actually believing in the end everything will somehow work out.
Who am I fooling?
